Rough Day

Yesterday was a really great day but today has been rough. Grief is so strange - mostly because I have never lost someone so close. You think you have a handle on it because you are at peace with where the person is - but then wham- it hits you like a mack truck again. I guess my mind is just coming to grips that I will miss my brother's words, his laughs and his hugs. Most of all I miss his love. I know he is with Jesus and I am sure he still loves me... it's just so hard to feel right now. It's just beyond my comprehension. I have been on the verge of crying all day and when I finally got by myself, I couldn't hold back.